I just got back from vacation yesterday. It's currently 04:20 as I write this and I can't sleep. I'm just so restless. I had a lot of fun for the most part where I went.
However I had some shit moments. I went to a buffet that costs $22 per person. I had only one plate and everyone started complaining to me saying that I was wasting money by not eating enough and forced to get another plate. I was also forced to have some dessert. I ended up purging it all.
I didn't eat for most of the trip though I had to eat dinner every day which sucked. I feel like I gained back all of my weight which makes me feel miserable. I could only purge if nobody was around so most of my meals stayed in my stomach. I was dying to purge every day at dinner time.
I can't wait to get back down under 100 lbs again. I'm planning on going back to what I was doing before I left for the trip and try to stay in the 0-200 calorie range again. Thank goodness blue berries are in season.
Before the trip I found a bunch of new thinspo pictures that I forgot to post prior to leaving. I'll upload them after this post.
I'm scared of weighing myself once I wake up today. I hope I'm not too fat again.